Hahaha..
Think the title of this entry speaks for itself…
My RO had a d&d yesterday night and someone from my department won agaiN! ME!
hahaha… what a joke.. i have friends who dress 10000 times better than me… i only stood a chance cause they are not in my RO. HEHE… YES!
Anyhow, i somehow have a bad vibe about being picked on and having people see the more open and joyous side of me… i have suddenly turned into
ms jiggles overnight. Its hard to say…professionalism wise, that is not such a good idea. What’s done is done i guess and i can always move on to greener pastures should the need arise.
Also, its hard for me to recover from being amongnst such a night with booze and all ( not that i drank any!)… i didnt drink but i felt that i was high on other people’s “HIGHness”
Its hard to explain but thankfully for me, i was banned from clubbing and i may have whined and fought about it for a long time with my hubby but i appreciate it now.
I cant do stupid things and act like nothing happened the day after, unfortunately or fortunately, i just cant shut off like that. Neither do i like to not have any control over my senses and emotions because i am acutely aware of the clumsy, threatening wild streak that runs in me…
The funny thing is that within the time i have been at this new job, i have met many different types of men, but the only one i want is my hubby… hahaha…
Mas has been busy with busy trips and i’ve been running around during weekends and weekdays. Our time together has become mighty precious if you ask me and i guard it with such ferocity.
My points may seem all muddled and incoherent but its truly a reflection of how disconnected i have been with myself.
All that runs in my mind is my job, my spare time and trying to have a life outside of work.I worry about not being able to get promoted in the future. I would much prefer being the boss of me and having my own business. But where is the money suppose to come from?
Help me.. its like sinking into quicksand of uncertainty and doubt.
Did i mention that mas and i may try to look for work overseas. Not anytime soon. But in the future. We miss the lonely days and the quiet nights and the power to do everything we want to do, not what others think we should do.
Totally spent. PEace Peeps !