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Watch this– all about how the Japs take life easy :

Its been 2 months since i’ve been living and breathing in sunny spore and this is the first week that Mas and I actually stayed in during the weekends…
Reason being i’m sick.

Its strange cause i missed out on the Halloween party that i have been looking forward to for like 4ever, but i know that my body is really tired…

BY the WAY!!!
Sijia,Bel,EE,Yanling, the Halloween Photos are so UBER CUTE.
It looked like a ball of fun and how i wish i could have been there…BOOO!!!!!!!
See you guys have met up with some ex tp people.

As for the unemployment status, i have actually gone for quite a few interviews, had one offer, and recieved a few weird ass remarks.
And i remain still unemployed.

Tried asking my dad and coercing Mas to quit his current job, hire me as a partner to his own biz but i guess things arent really going my way for now. Damn, i just hate this job hunting. It makes me so aware of my own strength and weaknesses.

I just want these jobs —–
1) Talent Scout/Headhunter
2) Celebrity Makeup artist
3) Own my own beauty parlor
4) Maybe take over my dad’s biz and run it like a family biz- sister, brother, mas, mother if she wants…
5) Photographer( Maybe with alot of training)

Strange Fact 1: Do you know fish food is made of FISH?

OKie anyho… its late, the medicine is kicking in and its enough pondering and wondering and admiring for the day. NIGhts!

I WROTE A SUPER LONG ENTRY and it got DELETED!!!!!!!! FUCK

ok.

I am so over it.

fuck.

ARGHHHHHH

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I will start afresh.

I miss all my frens and its time to update this blog with all the stuff in my life.

The fasting month just ended & i wana wish all my Muslim frens a SELAMAT HARI RAYA…

This Hari raya must be the most special and unique one cause i really scrubbed and cleaned alot of MAS HOUSE>..
His home doesnt just do any normal spring cleaning. Its a get on your butt and knees, with a scrubber and floor chemical or soap…. Everything was moved aside to clean hidden areas and it was painful but in a sick way FUN! I am after all, a bit of a clean freak and wet wipes are favourite tool. Than there was the baking, some cooking and helping out in the kitchen. Having to deal with the aunties and uncles on HAri raya, saying:” oh this is Isyak’s wife….. never invite to wedding… ” hahaha… i dun know how to explain it. Its just that, we got married in a totally unconventional, spend as little money as possible type of way. HEE HEE HEE

I had to ask for forgiveness from MAS’s granny, mom dad, sisters, direct aunty and uncle and his inlaws. MY GAWD.
It was emotional and touching and i totally muted when it came to one of his in laws. I SWEAR IT WAS NOT INTENTIONAL>
It was rude but i just couldnt do it! arghhhhhhh

Onto better things i shall put up photos of my beautiful BAJU soon. I think it was such a pretty beige brown color!

My mom has been coooking alot for mas and i during this fasting month , which is so sweet of her!
My dad fixed up curtains and helped carry wooden plank for MAs’s room bed.
In return , I did up my dad’s website and i have been running errands for my mom….
PLEASE LOOK AT MY DADDY”S WEBSITE!!!!!!!!!!!!! COUNTRY CONCEPT

I put in alot of effort to design it and i even went down to take alot of shots of his showroom and office shot for the website.
I LOVE IT… however its not entirely functional yet and theres alot of spelling mistake( thats so ME!). Its crucial to get it up on the web asap as i have been taking so long due to my crazy schedule. So bits and pieces will be changed for the better within these few days…..

THANKS MAS… u are the BEST WEB DESIGNER… and i am such a good BOSS ! hahahaha i designed it all and mas bascially put it up… dont we make a good team? Hee hee

Also, i tried to drive the mini just now in the carpark and it was so damn scary but fun… HA… i dun have a driving license but what the heck right!!!!! Now i know why the mini is for leisure driving… its damn tiring on the LEGS!!!!!!

I saw taufik and xiaxue recently… Taufik is so tall and cute! Xiaxue… no comments.

Yes yes, my job search is on an all time high and i am serious about making some MOOLAH SOON! My pockets are bleeding…
SINGAPORE IS TOO DAMN EXPENSIVE>>>> NO $$ NO HONEY<<<<<<<< I HATE IT!

Good night world.
If i sound abit crazy, i am from doing too many things and being tired. CHECK OUT THE WEBSITE OKAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Is this the reason why men run away?

hahaha

I am such a dork. I didnt put up my Dada Mini photo. The previous entry only had photos of the inside of the mini. Here’s a look at its SKIN>

a little update on my dada website. My mom loves it so i have not changed it that much but instead i’m gonna work
on the other pages. Hope to get it live and running soon for my wonderful dadaaa!!! Oh, i really need to find a JOB.
HELpppppppppp

I feel like i am just breathing underneath an invisbile blanket of stress.

I feel like i have to impress these people so much that it makes me angry and mad.
Whatever i have done, or whatever i have not for that matter, is making them think so little of me.

Its almost like all my studying to prove my worth was all in vain, and all i am good for is to bring bundles of joys to this world.

Maybe thats why i like to hide in my home so much.
Maybe thats why i prefer to sleep on my own bed and be with my own, who dont really give a damn about what i do…

Its so sad cause before i left, things werent so much like the way it is now.

I see useless written in their eyes and till now i’ve been trying to ignore it.
I dont want to be bothered anymore, anymore…

Thankfully this yellow mini has been bringing a smile to my face cause its so damn cute. ITS BRIGHT YELLOW!

Found this after cleaning my room…. These 2 are my sisters frens and they have such an exotic look. Perfect for the outrageous looks i gave them a long time ago…
I absolutely loved these photos!

Old Country Kitchens Design
to possibly this?

I have not a clue as to why its kinda yellow/greyish. Mas doesnt really approve. So it needs more work!

It seems that i have delayed the learning of Malay for as long as i can remember.

To be honest, I know i’m not stupid or incapable of learning but language is not my cuppa tea.

Calling china is a whole challenge in itself and my old chinese tutor( who i met recently at her house warming) made such a face when i told her i had to converse in chinese.

My BIL has been dropping big hints that its time to learn to speak malay.

I dont oppose it but its like i never get a rest from learning all sorts of languages.
Its fine if i can learn it easily but i dont.
Its painful to speak anything other than english and its not that i am not willing to learn, i swear i am just bad at it.

Maybe it’ll help in helping me get along better with mas’s side…..
Whatever. I shouldnt be doing it just cause other ppl tell me i should.
kinda pissed irritated and annoyed
i wana learn something at my own time and pace. Not cause i feel forced to or pressured to.