Black Lovet

Miss Trememdous Pressure is back.

My dad calls me that.

Went out today for a haircut (horrid), derm appt (with a PIG), dyed my hair (No color), walked around town with my sister and mother…

Bought all sorts of neccessitites… Why does something still not feel quite right?

Someone should write a book on how to adapt back. I mean…. firstly, my room is so much smaller than the apartment in Munich. I now have to hear things about my family that i dont want to know about at all… I actually have to attend to my handphone (in Munich, i didnt really touch it) ….. God, I left behind a year of really having the freedom to be ME.

Totally great to see family and frens, but its like I just suddenly threw away a year of a life that I never thought i could ever survive through. Its hard to put into words the sense of emptiness i’m feeling. I wish i could look into that huge window of our Munich apartment and bitch abt mas’ frens. I suddenly wish I could see Marienplatz; the free performances along the walk ways, the fresh smell of nuts and bread, the blondies, the calm demeanour, the sense that i make my own decisions totally unaffected by anyone. Such freedom is just so so so priceless.

Pardon the way i feel. pls…. i just am finding it difficult to adjust back… i thought that the food would totally make it better but it did not….

Munich Munich…. maybe one day i will be able to return?

How its simplicity, endurance, patience and calmness goes through me.

I will fight to keep all the lessons learnt within me. I just hope i dont get caught up in the craziness of it all.

Not this consumerism, not this rush.

Guess what? As with all the drama that i have encountered at the airports, yesterday was no exception.

Guess what dumbo me did? I left my ticket at home. Not because i forgot about it but mas and i both thought an e ticket would suffice. Needless to say we both forgot about a ticket rotting somewhere in the safe and i had to ask mas colleague to rush down to the airport. Needless to say my panties were in a bunch and i was fretting big time.

Gosh. Thank God, we managed to clear that hurdle. And somehow i made it home.

I was waiting at the lugguage belt and i turn around and saw my mom and brother and sister. I couldnt really think, i was so tired and my emotions werr messed up. I rushed outside and saw Mas’s family. I didnt know what to do. I just cried and cried. I am a closet cry baby.

I am still in a mess and so is my room.

So many things have happened in my family’s life that i felt lost somehow.

I miss my mom… when i look in her eyes, something tells me she doesnt want to really kick her kids out of the house. I see a tinge of fear of not being near her kids and i think thats something that she likes to hide alot.
damn… Saw my chinchins- they look abit bald, its the humidity and weather i think… they still recognise me thought!

My dad did up my room and its so sweet of him… sigh…

What do i do?

pictures coming up soon

Its almost time.
I walked around all my favourite places a thousand times. I had my last yummy yogurt gelato and pretzel and its almost quite surreal.
I just look at Mas and i see how happy he is here and it breaks my heart to know hes got a tons of worries and responsibilities to handle when we get back.
We get to do everything we want to do here. Sometimes letting go of this freedom is really painful

In my heart, i am saying bye to this street i live on and i am so grateful for growing up in such a wonderful place this past yr.

Munich, I luv U and Goodbye.

I am going to miss this place despite my 24-7 complaints.
Munich has been kind to me and its a great place to live and i’ll will never forget it.

I went for a free tour cause we were acting all touristy during my last days here and we had fun.
I learnt more stuff about munich

A) Munich is Beer and Beer is Munich.
OCKTOBERFEST- we learnt that normally munich residency no.s around 1.6 million but during this important beer drinking festival,
the number of people in this city rises to 6-7 million.

Munich has had 2 major beer riots in the past.One was due to a price increase and the other was because parliment had passed a bill stating no beer could be sold in restaurants after 9 or 10( cant remember the exact time but it was around there). In the end, the prices of beer was cut to even lower than the original price and the bill was kinda thrown out.

Munich has a law that ensures the beer is PURE, meaning that the beer has consists of four ingredients . Geezz

Munich’s early beginning originated with Monks and its funny cause they would drink lots of beer, as it helped them feel less hungry whenever they had to fast. Laws were passed to limit the amount of beer drunk per day to 3 litres and somehow they could even carry over whatever wasnt drunk that day to the next. my gawd….

Also, a common and impt symbol of Munich would be a Monk holding a Bible (psst, its actually suppose to be a beer mug)

The world’s most famous beer house HOFBRAUHAUS was the location for Hitler’s speech (things werent pretty bumpy for Hitler in the beginning of his revolution) to win and rally over 2000 communists in Bavaria. Apparently, things didnt go according to plan and the communists threw their beer mugs at him.

B) Churches. Munich has tons of these. They are a little dark and spooky to me though…
Also ,the catholics in this country have to give a rather high % of their income to the church too and they dont like it!

C) Around 80% of the tourist attractions in Munich’s Marien platz area are reconstructions. So much was damaged due to the wars….
Its sad cause some of the reconstructions are much simpler and not true representations.

D) MOST APPEALING TO SINGLE FEMALES and this is kinda something i learnt over dinner, not the free tour!
“French men make good lovers, but the German men make great husbands.”

HA… Mas female colleague has some chinese frens who married Germans and they say that they are rather obedient and let them do whatever the hell they want.. above’s a quote from those ladies by the way.
But i do vouch for the german guys. They grocery shop, take their babies everywhere, they dont act like singaporean guys who drool a pool over pretty ladies, they are well trained.

I will miss German men, they are great eye candy.

———————————WE EARNED 40 EUROS FROM THE GARAGE SALE!!!!————————————

MIKA - The Sissors Sisters all in one( Heh).
I read he was trained by a Russian Opera Professional.Like WOW.

Watch this MTV! A Skinny stick like guy singing about big girls and sticking his head in btw some woman’s thigh! It’s Brillantly funny.

Mike Quote:
“I enjoy creating possibilities out of more mundane things. I don’t see myself as being particularly flamboyant. I don’t think I’m camp. I just do what makes me feel happy. One thing I suppose I do have is a fearlessness that stems from not knowing the rules. When you are constantly rejected, as I was at school you don’t get a chance to play by the rules. If I had been accepted earlier on, maybe I would be more of a comformist now.”

I LOVE MIKA

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Makeup Brushes 101

Do people really need brushes? I think yes and no. If u are great with ur fingers and are happy with the applicators that come with ur eyeshadow casing than skip this.

I cant do without them though…

If u look at girls with beautifully blended eyeshadow, theres a high chance shes used some magic brush, something like a MAC BRUSH????

haha… Mac brushes are easy to use, blend great, look good, so this is an area in which they rule. Wish i had them during makeup school.

First up for the EYES,
MAC 239 - Meant for pilling on colors. Great reviews on MUA and u need one of this for smokey looks or to intensify colors without wasting more eyeshadow.

MAC 275- Great for brow bone Highlighting or if u have a fat lid, this will be great for applying and blending eyeshadow

MAC 249- Brow bone Highlighting. U can even such brushes to apply concealors and cream based products.

MAC 217- Hate to blend? I didnt know shit about blending but i knew i wanted to have beautifully shaded colors so this will be great. If the spread is too big, and u want more control to where u are blending, buy the MAC 219

MAC 266- Wing tip, simple lining, eyebrows. This will give precise looking lines. And if ur brows are thin, this will be fab.

For the FACE

MAC 187- This brush will make ur foundation look flawless. If u have some bumps, use this brush first for foundation, than use a dab of concealor over it. If it still doesnt cover flaws well, try to use the flatter foundation brushes to apply foundation, as it gives a denser coverage. This brush gives a more dispersed and more natural look.
Great for blushes and bronzers.

Powder brush- For an even application of powder. Fast and hygienic.

For the LIPS

Any Good Lip brush. Applying that red lippy will be a whole lot easier.

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All brush pics from MAC’s webby

To all my gfs and bf who read my daily ongoings through this blog — I think i have more or less bought all of u tiny gifts from Munich. I just got to clarify that its not another Bavarian Mug or a typical souvenir gift, its leans more to the practical consumer goods. Why? I just think buying souvenirs can be tacky and u cant use it… it just sits on ur desk. Moreover, it doesnt mean anything to people who havent been there. Its more exciting to have been the one who travelled overseas and purchased the souvenir first hand. So, dont expect any bavarian flag, mug or cup from meeee…..

Ur Gifts remains secret….
But i will reveal what i bought for the women of my family.
My mom doesnt want a longchamp bag or anything exp, so she said not to bother but i missed her Birthday and she hates all the clothes i have bought for her thus far, so the next best thing was to get her a beautiful lip gloss (Chanel Crystal Melon Gloss)….

I bought my sister Chanel Pink Candy Lip Gloss

I tried on both colors in MULLER, and i walked in the rain with it, came home, took a short shower and its still on my lips. Its not the least bit sticky and it makes ur lips look really kissable. No horrible taste too!

I have tried Mac Lip Glass b4, and i think if it suits u than it suits u. It doesnt suit me and makes my lips look like a puffer fish.

I have tried Dior Addict lip Gloss too and i HATE IT. ITs very pretty if u have pale lips that wont interfer with the gloss color and the packaging is beautiful but it leaks. It stained my makeup pouch. When i pay more than 30 sing for a lippy, it better not have packaging problems. Peirod.

Lancome lip glosses look great on most people like my Mom. Very sticky though.

Moving on to Concealors:

Some time ago, i had a makeup junkie fren who wanted me to buy YSL Touche Eclat all the time. I was like, ITS TOO EXP! ITs just a bloody concealor and i didnt think it was that fantastic.
Staying in Munich for 1 yr coming, i would say my dark eye circle and bags have lessened tremendously … so i tried it on again today for the heck of it ….. WOW….. I used a tiny tiny bit and it really brightened up my eye… If u have drier skin with not too heavy eye bags and dark circles, this crap realli good.

If u got really bad darkcircles and eye bags, than this crap will be crap.

I am wearing only, Chanel cristalle lip gloss and YSl Touche eclat.

High end or affordable makeup? As long as it looks good on you, thats what matters right?

From C&A… LOVE THIS CUTIE NECKLACE!

Things that make Munich, Munich.

1) Manners. Danke( thank you), Hallo( Hi) and Auf wiedersehen( bye)
2) Runners. The people here love to run. Be it winter or summer or anything in btw, they run.
3) Cycling. Includes the Fat, old, heavily pregnant, very young. They cycle everywhere.
4) Pretzels. This is the best tasting bread around. Take a hot one with a big dollop of butter and its yum yum.
5) The Married Daddies in Schawbing are HOT. The guys here are so cute, sometimes i suspect hitler ordered that only the goodlooking ones be spared.
6) Dads like to go jogging with their kids in movable prams.
7) Its a DOG land. Every other person, except maybe the turks, has a dog.
Its a bread land. Theres a bakery at every corner.
9) Organic food is big here.
10) The water has tons of white chalk in it. Dont look into the kettle!
11) Shops close at 8 and Sundays are a Dead Town.
12) People especially like to eat ice cream at certain times of the year.
13) They dont have Aircons. Only Heaters. When summer comes, its terribly stuffy.
14) People are fiercely loyal to all things German. American products are not exactly very welcome here.
15) English Gardens can also be know as the Naked Garden during Summer. People love strip down and STAND UP.
I guess they want to get the sun into the dark corners.
16) Beer is drunk at any time of the day, especially during Oktoberfest
17) Germans dont do CUTE. They dont have any neo print booths, any cute festivals…. They only love to look ridiculous when they are supporting the German Soccer Teams.
18) Munchens have their own slang and they can tell when someone is from the suburbs or countryside….
19) They hate Austrians.
20) THey have bloody long vacations. Twice to Thrice that of singaporeans leave duration.

Purple is not a great color for the eyes
Thats what i think of when i see purple eyeshadows..
More accurately though, it should be said that purple eyeshadows are not an easy color to wear.
Purple eyeliners, blushers, highlighters and lipglosses are great otherwise.

After doing an online search, it just didnt seem to be a flattering shade. Maybe the lighter shades are much easier to carry off and can suit any skin tone, but the darker more cheapo looking purples can make eyes look like crap.

Whether u think
” Purple is not for anyone”
Or
” U just gotta choose the right shade, blah blah ….”

I wanted to make it work for my mostly hidden double eyelid, Shallow socket and Sallow lid.

Beautiful Eyeshadow Quads

Or pick a single purple color u adore,

Brushes:

Start Painting
A) Use lighter purple shades on the eye lid with jet black liquid eyeliner for a very clean and sleek look. The eyeliner can be restricted to the upper lids and can be as dramatic or cat like as you want. Look at crazy Amy Winehouse.

Blush can be a very light pink blush.
Finish with Glossy lips.

B) Use darker shades for a smokey look.
Opt for some shimmer on the cheekbones.
Finish with Nude lips.

C) Rim the eyes with a medium shade purple eyeshadow.

Use jet black mascara
Optional: Apply a sparkley purple eyeliner close to the top and bottom lashes. Use a white eyeliner for the lower water line to make eyes bigger.
Lips can be whatever color u fancy.

D)

I used a darker shade of purple on the inner half part of the eyelid, and reddish brown on the outer half of the lid.
For the browbone, i used a more off white matte color.
If i used a shiny white, it would make everything way too shimmery.
Lined both upper and lower water lines with soft black liner afterwhich i applied a light purple pencil liner to the bottom.

Nude lips

I took a photo of this cute shimmer powder by ARTDECO from Glamour….
So damn cute, But my luggage has no more space. I think my luggage is going to burst from all the bags, shoes and all my makeup.
i’m screwed!

This anime is so damn good
It really made me cry only after the first few epsiodes.
Dont get carried away with anime, it consumes you.
I tell myself that over and over again but i cant help it.

Youth, love, lust, seperation, dreams, moving away….

God, This anime will wrap u and swallow u with its fantastic characters and moving storyline.

I guess i am looking at my life now and wondering just how brave can i get? Just how far can i go? Just what the hell am i going to do?
I am not going to beat myself on my head just because i wasnt born with an illuminating dream or a deep purpose.
I’ll find my way. Its not been easy to break free from everything i hold dear, its not been easy to bring myself to accept the fact that u move ur life. Life doesnt move you. God, i am an emotional wreck from watching this anime.

Friends i have had, who just up and left, never to regret leaving home or friends.
I thought they were horrible for not being there for everyone who loves them
How could they be so heartless i asked myself many times b4?
Finally today i realised that people have their own dreams and must not be limited to being there for everyone who loves them.
Let it be that they hurt others, Let it be that their absence hurts and stings, but in the end, people have their dreams and hopes and desires and no one should and can hold them back.
Is it really for the best?
Is the most honest thing to do the best thing?
We’ll never know.

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NA NA A Little Pain

I am going to wish SINGAPORE an early HAPPY BIRTHDAY! My favourite city. I luv Singapore and i am proud to say that i luv Lee Kwan Yew the genius.

I am on abit of an adrenaline high cause Mas and I are doing early promotions for a garage sale on the 26th and 27th of August!!!!
Lots of stuff have been Reserved and things are looking GOOD!
First mini garage sale i have ever held in my life and i think its going to be fun!

I cant bear for good stuff to be thrown away so our home items will be sold for cheap or nothing at all.hehehehe… stupid things get me excited.

If u think what we are selling is absolutely stupid and silly, u havent seen what the Germans can sell at Flea Markets. They sell crap at ridiculously high prices. Its like a crappy skirt that has been worn to death, looks like death, can be sold for 8 euro. I almost DIED!!!!!!!!! No i didnt take any photos of the flea market we went to but if there any in the coming weeks, i will surely take some photos of the Germans wonderful idea of a BArgain…. BurP!